I might be quiet for awhile

I know this is a cat board but I'm here for most of the time.

I have a 10 year old German Shepherd, Sadie...and I fear it's come time to let her go :cry: . Sadie has gone beyond simple incontinence and now is full blown leaking urine or maybe even bodily fluids - I don't know. Her fur is wet all the time now from toes to armpits. I'm sure the skin underneath is raw as I can't keep her dry. I towel dry her, blow dry...and an hour later she's dripping urine from her fur. And while I'm drying her off you can see urine running down her legs.

I've done my research and there are many people who have experienced this with their dogs and so far they've all come up with tumors on/near/in the bladder area. I've asked her vet what they need to do to determine that and I'm not going to put this dog through anymore. Last year she had a rather extensive surgery and it was so long for her to recuperate and even if this is tumor related there would be nothing I could do for her.

We've decided to let her go before she gets worse - or in pain...which she could be in already just not showing it. She also vomited this morning which is something she never does.

I've had this dog for 10 years and she's such a large part of our family. I adore her - she once protected my son from someone coming in our house, she's awoken us to bears at the front door many times. She was our hiking companion for years but can no longer even go for a simple walk. I'd wanted a 100% GSD since I was a little girl. I'd always had GSD mixes and Sadie was my first all GSD...and she's been the dog of my dreams both in breed and personality and such a vibrant force in our lives.

She leaves us Thursday afternoon. I can't do it but my husband has promised he won't let Sadie leave us alone. IT'll be hard for him too but he said he can do it. I can't...I just can't. I laid awake last night willing myself to be strong enough to stay with her when she takes her final breath but I'm not strong enough to to that.

Please wish my dog god speed over the rainbow bridge Thursday afternoon. I'm probably gonna keep myself busy Friday so I don't think at all...I'm not going to work. I don't know if I'll even get out of bed...I just know I'm going to be in pain.

I want Sadie to leave my side in dignity...I don't want her to get to the point where every breath is painful. I know she's hurting now cause when I wipe her dry she shows me her teeth - I'm sure the constantly urine-soaked skin must be getting raw. I can't keep her dry. I've tried all of the incontinence aids but she leaks right through them now.

 

I'm very sorry for your loss but just remember your doing the right thing for your baby. She is in pain and will be in a better place soon. DOnt worry- she will always be with you- just ask Vene!

You gave her all the love you could and now its time to say goodbye. You love her and she loves you and you can never be separated. Just rememeer that!!

 

Oh Mary i'm so sorry you are doing the right thing she will be healthy again and running around with my Nala and waiting for you to be with her again.

Please let us know how you are doing

 

Oh Mary, I'm so sorry.

{{Hugs}}

 

thank you...I've sent a silent plea out to my Sessy cat to please meet Sadie at the Bridge. Sessy and Sadie were best of pals and Sessy has been gone 2 years on July 18th. Sessy also knew my former cat, Tami and my former dog Daisy - they'll all wait for my Sadie dog (oh tears)

 

Mary i am so sorry

 

oh mary im so sorry.

 

I'm so sorry Mary! :cry: :cry: :cry:

 

im sooo sorry to hear about that my heart goes out to u..

 

oh dear mary...i am just crying like a baby. i am so sad for you and your
sadie. just have tears fallin down my face. my heart just breaks when i hear things like this....i feel so, so sad. maybe because i lost otis not that long ago. i took him to emergency at 3:30 in the morning after he had a seizure. God, it just crushes me to remember that. i couldnt be with him when they euthanized him.....i just couldnt. i cried and cried and cried. mary...my deepest regrets for your loss. lynn and max

 

Mary, I am so sorry. This is a hard time for many of us. Today I lost Vene 1 yr ago. I understand what you are going through. Hang in there.

 

I'm so sorry, Mary. I will be thinking about you and Sadie for the next few days. It's good she will go peacefully with your husband at her side. Take care of yourself - we're all here for you when you're ready to come back.

 

vene...i am thinking of you too today... otis and vene might be friends up there...who knows? stranger things have happened as we both know

 

"oh Mary" ((( hugs to you))) You are doing the right thing, Sadie is looking for peace now, and Sessie will be waiting for her to take her over the rainbow bridge and they will be happy together

honeybear

 

I'm sorry to hear it. Maybe you will feel some peace that your loved one will be at peace. I'm sure it will take quite some time for your pain to ease... We all know how difficult it is... even if it's the right thing to do. :cry:

 

I am so sorry Mary, I looked for a poem for you, your hubbie and Sadie and found this one.............

When The Times Comes
If it should be that I grow frail and weak
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then will you do what must be done,
For this--the last battle--can't be won.

You will be sad I understand,
But don't let grief then stay your hand,
For on this day, more than the rest,
Your love and friendship must stand the test.

We have had so many happy years,
You wouldn't want me to suffer so.
When the time comes, please, let me go.

Take me to where my needs they'll tend,
Only, stay with me till the end
And hold me firm and speak to me
Until my eyes no longer see.

I know in time you will agree
It is a kindness you do to me.
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering I have been saved.

Don't grieve that it must be you
Who has to decide this thing to do;
We've been so close--we two--these years,
Don't let your heart hold any tears.

Author Unknown

With love
Annie

 

I am so sorry.

:cry: Mary, I am so sorry for your loss. You were very kind to me when my Missy died and I was re-living everything all over again when I read about your dog. I was there for Missy but could not hold her, so my husband did. It was not until afterward that I did and I kissed her for the final time. Time does not really heal a broken heart. I miss her terribly and I know you miss Sadie but as you said your other loving pet have met her when she went over. Know that she is probably still with you. It is crazy but we sometimes find little rolled up pieces of paper in our bed. Missy used to love playing with them. Those are the days I cry the most. Anyway, remember all the fun times. Take care.