I just wanted to thank Auspetian, Kyles101, Vene, Dolly, Russianbluefanatic, Halaroo, Mary_NH, Deb2950, Ia_Cat_Lover, Samsintentions, Lynnhaz, Honeybears, Disneeworld, Obelix, Ilovemaltipoos, Nern, Footsie, Fblack and Fleafly for all of your kind words. It means a lot to me. Thank you all so much. I wish I could say I was feeling a little better, but I'm not. I can't stop crying and I just miss my Handsome so much. I'm worried I may flood my house with all of my tears. Maybe I should go out to the garage and blow up my little rubber camping boat? I'm trying to make myself laugh, but instead I'm just making myself cry. My eyes are so puffy from crying I think I need one of those seeing eye dogs. I have not worked in the last two days. The last thing anyone wants is a dentist drilling on their teeth with puffy eyes and cotton rolls in their nose. I've been trying to keep busy by being productive. I thought it might be a good idea to do a little gardening today, because everything in the house reminds me of Handsome. There is still his beautiful shiny fur around the house from when I zoom groomed him two days ago. He sure like to be zoomed. I need to vacuum that up, but I just can't bring myself to do it. It's like I'm trying to hold onto as much as I can that is left of him here. Anyway, I went and tried to garden in my yard, but everywhere I looked it reminded me of him. So, I was outside all by myself, remembering how much Handsome loved to help me garden. He would bring me worms he found or lay right inside the hole I just dug to plant something in. Other times he would like to follow the little stream of water from the hose or just smell every flower. Handsome sure loved flowers. He also liked all of his fresh catnip plants. I have a lot of banana trees in my yard and boy did he ever love to climb them. I used to call him Monkey Boy when he did this. He was so proud that he could climb up that far. I would see him looking down at me as if he was saying, "Look how high I can go!" He really was just the best cat in the whole world to me. I love him so much and I miss him terribly. I'm still having a hard time accepting that he's gone. I'll hear a cat meow or some kind of sound and for a split second, I think it's him, but then I remember that he's gone and then the tears start up again. I have lost friends and family and other fur animals during my life, but I knew that I was going to lose them. It was already known that they were very ill or just old. Handsome's death was so unexpected and the way in which it happened was so traumatic. My house is full of flowers and sympathy cards and now all of these wonderful posts here at Auspet from all of you. Every single post brought tears to my eyes. Thanks again everyone for being here for me and for all of your kind words. When I feel better I will post again. Right now I just don't feel very well.